To be in that pool,
To hold my breath and go under the water,
Stay under and wait until you feel you cant breathe,
Its like your trying for something more,
Hoping for something more.
Then you come up from the water,
Just knowing that you can bring yourself to the surface,
Makes you feel so lucky,
So special,
To save yourself from injury,
To save yourself from possible death.
To be wake up and still be tired,
To feel so dead inside,
To feel nothing but hurt all the time,
To not want to do anything,
See anyone,
Too scared to be yourself,
And to be disappointed that you woke up from the sleep you wanted to die in.
Then there are the people,
The friends who never frown,
Who wake up feeling the best they have ever felt,
To want to help you,
Make you as cheerful as they are.
Without realising that they cant
make you feel better.
