Redemption

How could redemption possibly feel
If it should ever come to me
God help me, help me to survive
Lord give me strenght to live this life
For it is painful just to hold on
And I am struggling to stay strong
Every day I wonder why
I feel the way I feel inside
And all I long for is some peace
I have achings which can't be eased
There is a restlessness inside my soul
Which my weak body cannot control
And there is an emptiness inside my heart
Which is tearing my tired mind apart
I find no use in my existence
For the life I live just makes no sense
I wonder what I am living for
When all I cared for I have no more.