Afraid Of Myself

by HighPerfection   Feb 4, 2006


I'm spinning out of control
I wish I were dead
I haven't felt this way in so long
Why am I here I don't want to go

I'm afraid of myself
I'm afraid of what I might do to myself
I'm so scared for the first time in my life
of something I know so well

They tell me ill kill myself
Before I conquer my dreams
My coaches tell me im so close
I don't want die im terrified im so scared

Get me away from here
I don't belong
Why am I here I don't deserve this
I feel so alone with him at my side

I'm so confused I don't know where to turn
I'm slipping away but I don't want to
I don't want to die but it sounds like my only choice
But I want to live

I'm so frightened
Please someone help me
I don't know where I am
I don't know where to go

Im sorry if none of this makes sense
Im just so scared

(c) Hillary Dorsey 2005
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  • 18 years ago

    by master of shadow

    Fntastic peice, can relate to the fear within it i've felt the same many times in the past, when i've been unable to trust myself not to do something slightly extreme.

    the peice flows vey well and the content is portrayed well making an overall great peice.

  • 18 years ago

    by Stephy

    Yah i know what you mean, i am constently scared of what i might or could do to myself, scared I'll regret it, or that I'll hurt the people i love..stay strong, thats all i can say, try and talking about it with your parents ro friends, maybe they can help...-xxx-

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