I Won't Care

I always use to think
About taking my life away
Slitting my skin like before
Cutting day after day

Then I use to dream
About being found
Barely alive but still breathing
In a pool of blood on the ground

I would always worry
About both outcomes
Dieing or being saved
While hearing my heartbeat drum

I can not decide
Of what to do
Should I just late fate take over me
Or ponder more through and through

Maybe I should just ensure a death
And point a gun to my head
So that when I am found
I will already be dead

That way it won't matter
About what happens to me
People won't ask stupid questions
I've been pressured enough you see

No longer do I care
About what people say
Or how people would feel
If I just died one day

I'm not loved, so
I don't want medical care
I just want to end it all
Cause life just ain't fair

So when you see me
In my grave
You'll wish you'd have helped me
When I wanted to be saved

And when you see me
Your heart will tear
But don't worry about it
Cause I won't f u c k i n g care!