My life's reflictin

I thought I new what I really wanted
but now I'm not sure the past that i have hunted
the past that triggers my unhappiness
my emotions have been so withdrawn and sadness

many of the lonesome days all i want to do is cry
at times i think i am worthless and just want to die
the parents are live with are loving and so caring
i don't show enough affections, guess i;m not caring

there are so much things i want to say and do
I can talk to my dearest friends but not with you
with you there is something that block my emotions in
I guess that hatterd i have between my mind and within

you would think i would be over joyed and happy living here
I am happy with my friends but with you i shed a tear
I know i have messed up when you adopted me
maybe it's the guilt that hunts me i just can't see

I'm not done yet but i just wanted some opinions on this one,

(C) DevilWithin