Because

It's time I learnt
I can't be everything
I thought you were beyond this
a figurative dream
I was fooled

I am my own nightmare
because i loved you
accept...
accept it

my pleasure in others misery
our eyes lock for a second
and that moment is like a 6 inch needle
embedded in my brain

every time the sky is blurred
it hits me like a wall
it's like new again
the knife twists

you can't look at my eyes
and pretend you don't see it
it's everywhere, everything
and you can't hide away

hit me with your blood-soaked fist
I dare you
it's magnetic, an ever-present itch
it bleeds

and it will stay with me forever
the impression of your hands on my skin
until I reach my early demise