Broken

I hide all the hurt and pain
Behind the curtains of my eyes
Hope has flown far too swift
Lost in the summer breeze of long ago

I had so many dreams,
So many things of yet to be,
I held onto them so hard,
Engraved them in my heart,
And they were broken one day,
Leaving me empty, broken, desolate

I just need someone to understand
I don’t need pity nor sympathy
Please don’t slam your door
Or shut yourself from me

It isn’t easy to pretend
Like everything’s fine
When the tears are still falling
Onto your broken heart

It isn’t easy to give a smile
To a stranger on the bus
When you don’t trust anyone, anymore

No; it isn’t easy to be me
Just so completely broken and hurt,
Empty,
Void of all feeling,
Just another lost girl,
Just another zombie
Blinded by sadness and loneliness
Out to find what she was made out for

It hurts when you look out the window
You see joy and happiness spread everywhere
But for the lonely girl on the bus
Her companion is her shadow and the
Echoes of a broken heart

I thought it would be easy to forget
I thought it was easy to pretend
But when memories follow you
And things stop making sense
I just can’t help but hope
The past will come back

It wasn’t perfect
It wasn’t the best
But still it wasn’t this bad
At least I cold still be me