Who I Am

A year ago I had everything I could ever need
I had it all and the world was mine to lead
I didnt have the guy whose arms kept me warm
Or the guy who said the words with charm
I did have the friends who stuck by my side
Always there but not just for the ride
A few months later and soon I had everything and more
I had the friends and family but then that guy came through my door
Soon my life changed again but only for the worst
The only thing to say was my life had wrongfully been cursed
Hard times came and went and soon I was back on my feet
Didnt need a guy anymore to make my heart skip a beat
Nothing mattered except my family and friends
Together forever and by side till the very end
Finally I got my best friend back and I know everything will be alright
Though sometimes I wish I had that guy to hold me through the night
I know Ill find him someday but all I can do is wait
So for now Ill go out with my friends and stay out late
Not a worry in my mind, not much care
Only a few things still I do not dare
I have days when I still think of what could have been
The"if's" and the "but's" run through my mind again and again
Slowly Im getting back to the girl I used to be
Only wish I was there all along, just being me
One day Il get there if only it came today
So I wouldnt worry and my troubles would go away
Time ticks on but way too slow
I know the day is coming so on I must go