You sold your soul to perfection.

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You had a long night,
full of pain brought upon yourself,
starving and purging to be perfect
yet it didn't help,
your bones are beyond sticking out,
but in your mind you say,
perfect never came today,
it never comes my way.'

You brush your teeth hoping the taste of the toothpaste will hold you off,
But all these smells and urges come, and you tell yourself,I'll have just one,
but after the first one goes down you just cant stop it's like a vicious circle it goes around and around.
After your huge food splurge you feel so guilty and disappointed in yourself,
You have to get rid of whats in your body and you have to get rid of it fast!
you rush off to the bathroom, good thing no one's home.
You've become so immune to this lifestyle you don't need to use your fingers anymore.
It's over to the toilet, but you couldn't wait, now it's on the floor,
you hate this disgusting habit, but you love it even more.

Your stomach is aching, you've been throwing up blood,
you pull yourself up to the mirror and hate the person you have become.
you see yourself as fat and grasp at what skin you possibly can,
you think you have a fat bloated belly and Love handle's, at that.
You promise yourself to become perfect and you wont eat until you do,
little did you know,your killing yourself, and everyone around you really knows what you do.
Your day consists of no food, and when you do eat, you purge
the rest of your time your buckled over from stomach pains and whats worse is theres no cure.

When its time to go to school you put a smile on for all to see,
Your friends always try to comfort you and make you feel better but your too blind to see,
This stress you've brought upon yourself is way too much to handle,
so while everyones in class you run off to an empty bathroom,
you look at yourself and just see disgust,
you can't make yourself purge right now,you wouldn't take the chance of getting caught,
you go into one of the stalls, you know, just in case someone did come in,
you take out a razor you packed in your backpack for emergency's and cut yourself all up,
stay there until the bleeding subsides and then run along to class.

Then its time for you to leave,
your parents will be home after work,
that means your going to have to eat supper or make up one damn good excuse,
You shovel down your supper and tell your parents your going out with some friends,
find the nearest store and ask to use their bathroom,
once again the purging starts but this time it was too much to handle,
your small frail body collapses on the cold hard floor,
your perfect vision is no longer clear,
you throw up while your paralyzed and choke on that bad habit you have created.

You hated how you looked but truthfully you were way too thin,
everything was perfect about you, especially the perfect person within,
Now your bad habits have become the death of you,
Theres no way to take it back too bad you didn't just stay home that night,
everybody misses you and when they found you it was a terrible sight.
perfection isn't everything, you had good friends and a pretty good life,
But low and behold the thoughts of society got to you and,
perfection took MY life.

(C) Copyright, Rachel 2006*