I used to believe
suicide was the only way
never dealing with problems
and always having a bad day
every night i used to cry
and pull out my knife
every night i thought
i was ready to end my life
i used to want out
and to forget every bit of my past
i didn't want to see a future
i just wanted this to end fast
i used to cut my wrist and play games
never caring what others thought
just as long as mom didn't know
just as long as i wasn't caught
i think back on what i could have lost
i could have never met the love of my life
i very easily could be gone
if just one time i would have slipped with that knife
i think about how stupid i must have been
to even let that thought over come me
to see my blood each night
i wonder why it took me so long to finally see
i could have never became anything
just a lost soul at a young age
i never would have had a job
never would have been engaged
i never would have found out
i wasn't straight
i never would have found
my one true soul mate
thank you my baby
for saving my life
for keeping me here
and for one day becoming my wife
