Pain, Suffering and Confusion

Why is this so confusing to me?
If I wasn't so confused, it would make this so easy.
Why can't I just know what he's thinking?
What two pieces of this puzzle am I not linking?

There has to be something that I missed.
There was such a power I felt, whenever we kissed.
You have all of my love and trust.
I thought things were okay with us.

This whole thing is drivng me insane.
I'm just not used to feeling so much pain.
Just tell me you want me to do.
So I now how to be with you.

But, maybe the love I felt only went one way.
Maybe I was blind in thinking everything was okay.
I thought we were gonna love forever.
Not knowing how much I was gonna suffer

I don't know if you even notice what I feel.
The way things went from great to horrible is so unreal.
What's going has me so confused.
Right now my heart is feeling neglected and abused.

Just tell me what is going on.
Instead of making me wonder what I did so wrong.
I just can't take this pain, suffering, and confusion that feels so strong.
I wish I could know if with you, is where I belong.