Just A Little

I'm writing you this letter
It comes from deep inside
I'm writing of all my fears
That I can no longer deny

Don't hate me for this
I just need to get this out
So don't be angry
Just see what this is about

Each day that passes by
Brings me on my knees to pray
That maybe I'll find the answers
To why I'm so afraid

There's a part of me that smiles and laughs
But there's a part of me that wants to cry
'cause secretly when I'm alone
I wonder why you haven't said goodbye

I don't know why you love me
I don't know if they're just words
But don't get me wrong
I just don't want to end up hurt

You've seen all my spots
And you know I'm truly flawed
So I just don't know why
you're still here and haven't withdrawn

I wanted to be your girl
For how long you'll never know
But now that I'm yours
I'm afraid to see you go

I don't know how I'll make you stay
When times get hard and we find ourselves alone
I won't know how to live
'cause you're my heart, you're my home

I'm sorry I'm not your idea of beautiful
But I try to make you proud
'cause I want you to feel good holding me
Even when we're in a crowd

I'll try my best to make you smile
I'll even say I'm okay
'cause I know you deserve more
So I don't know why you stay

I apologize for these things I've said
Don't think I love you any less
I know I'm not making sense
And I'm tangled in a mess

But forgive me if you can
I'm just letting my heart speak
I know I sound quite pathetic
I'm just a little weak

'cause when you whisper those sweet words
I don't know if you mean what you say
If you're feeding me some lies
Or if it's just a game you play

Give me a little time
Just a little time to believe
That when bad comes to worst
You won't get up and leave

Please know that I love you
I'm just a little scared
I don't want to break
When you're no longer here

But truth is, when I lay me down to sleep
There's nothing more to hide
'cause all these things just fade away
And I know I have you by my side

**ry, don't doubt my love for you. i just get insecure after all that's happened. i'm sorry. i don't know what to say, but that i love you. don't be mad. i miss you so much. night night.