I've lost my best friend

Ive lost my best friend
I betrayed her trust
I told a secret
That was just between us

My mind full of guilt
My stomach is turning
The times that we shared
Are now all ending

If I could go back
Id tell myself
The pain I would cause
If I opened my mouth

Maybe then wed be friends
Still to this day
No hurting to feel
From careless words anyway

Shell never forgive me
She said so herself
Her pain I can feel
I wish I could help

I wanted to hug her
Make everything right
But even a million hugs
Could never suffice

I ruined a perfect friendship
Its all my fault
I take the blame
And show myself out

I dont want to cause her
Any more pain
She has so much to give
Ill step out of the way

I know shell find friends
More deserving than me
Of her time and her trust
Like I wish I could be

But I had my chance
I took it for granted
Thinking nothing could take
The friend Id been handed

I sit and think back
On the moments we had
By each others sides
Through the good and the bad

We shared lots of laughter
And times of tears
Im glad she was my friend
Those five to six years

I take the memories with me
I hold on to them tight
Ill miss my best friend
But everything will be alright