Not just a nightmare 2/6/06

TODAY, OUR PLACE FELT EMPTIER THAN IT EVER HAD BEFORE.
VACANCY FILLED THE ROOM BEFORE YOU EVEN SHUT THE DOOR.
I KNEW DEEP DOWN WHEN YOU CAME BACK IT WOULD NEVER BE THE SAME.
SO THEN I LEFT, FOR THE ANTICIPATION WAS MAKING ME INSANE.
I SPENT ALL DAY AWAY FROM OUR PLACE.
HOPING YOU WOULD CALL, THAT YOU JUST NEEDED SOME SPACE.
UNFORTUNATELY WHEN YOU DID, YOU HAD THE VERY OPPOSITE TO SAY.
WE DECIDED I WOULD BE THE ONE TO MOVE AWAY.
I TRIED REALLY HARD TO KEEP PAIN FROM MY VOICE,
MASKING IT WITH THE BACKGROUND NOISE.
TONIGHT IS THE FIRST NIGHT WE HAVE SPENT APART,
I NEVER REALIZED BEFORE I WAS SO SCARED OF THE DARK.
THE DESIRE TO COME HOME AND CRAWL INTO OUR BED,
IS DISTRACTED BY YOUR WORDS THAT REPEAT INSIDE MY HEAD.
I'VE HURT OTHERS BEFORE, THIS IS VERY TRUE.
IT CUTS INSIDE DEEPER BECAUSE I'VE DONE IT TO YOU.
I'VE BEEN HURT BEFORE, BUT THIS IS A DIFFERENT KIND.
THIS IS SOMETHING FROM MY DOING, REPLAYING IN MY MIND.
I PROBABLY WONT SLEEP MUCH, FOR NOW MY MINDS RACING.
IM FEELING VERY ANXIOUS, INSIDE MY HEARTS PACING.
TOMORROW I'LL WAKE UP AND HAVE TO START A NEW DAY,
LOST IN MY THOUGHTS WITH NOTHING TO SAY.
INEVITABLY,SOONER THAN LATER I'LL HAVE TO START A NEW LIFE.
I'LL PUT THAT OFF AS LONG AS I CAN, FOR TONIGHT IM STILL YOUR WIFE.