Today I saw the love of my life standing there with another girl, I had the strength to hold everything in till I got home in my room. Today I found out the real reason why my dad left me, there is also someone else in his life other then my mom. Why is there always someone to take the most important things in your life. When you had that person first before anyone, you were the first to feel their love but it easily is taken away. I am willing to work as much as I have to to get my love back...I wish I had someone to hold me like my father used to, I want someone to tell me they love me like my father used to, I want someone to be there for me like my father used to. When things got rough I always had someone there now I feel like I have no one. So please lord send the love of my life back to me...I promise to be the better person I was when I was loved..Now I feel unloved and do bad things because no one seems to care. You sent me an angel but that angel is no longer by my side. Give me the strength to stand tomorrow, give me the strength to breathe, give me the strength to open my eyes in the morning with no one next to me...Everything was easily taken away....Please forgeive me for saying this but I am slowly letting go and losing faith...My heart wont heal or love anyone else...Because there is no one better than what I had...I dont look at my father the same anymore...People say they know how it feels, but they no have no clue...If your parents were together for 16 years, the first 10 years of your father in and out of your life, then out of no where your father leaves you for the last time.... then you tell me you know how it feels, now that I have gotten closer to him he leaves me...Now that I am going through all this I have to go to school and see the love of my life holding someone else...I look at him as he looks at her...My father promised never to leave my side again like he used to, he promised to give me the worl.d, but now he is with someone else with a different family...So God all I am asking to send an angel back that I once had and give me the strength to wake up each morning...
