I awake each moment with a new day,
Just couldn't wait to see what this day would bring,
Yet I always tried to keep my hatred towards things away,
But some times a couple seep out and I yell at some one,
Well I hope not my parents but sometimes I do,
So I just bend over and let them kill my last sprinkle of fun,
I might sometimes actually appear to be the happiest person on earth,
But lets not try to be hasty- looks can be deceiving,
On the inside I'm as dark as night and as cold as the artic waters and as lonely as the face on a coin,
I keep on thinking,
If I have no purpose on here than why was I born,
To lead the life I lead,
Its not even a fairy tale- not even a dream,
Its started out well almost great,
Though I wasn't like others you see,
I had a earing problem and well no father to look after me,
But for some reason my head was up high yes but too bad it was shaking back and forth most of the time,
Then I met her,
The truest of true friends,
She was sweet, honest, caring, and more that you could wish a friend to be,
I was happy to have found her and that's all I need,
My grades went up and my head seemed to have stopped shaking,
Only because my good summer friends helped me to stop,
Then I was truly so happy,
Guess what,
My real dad comes home.
Now I thought I was so lucky,
But really he was short on fuse to keep his temper,
I whimpered in fear most 2nd grade,
Then came 3rd, 4th, 5th, and now 6th,
My mom by now has had two more kids,
Watching them wasn't too fun,
Changing diapers and bottles ain't no blast,
Then came volley ball and PSIA,
More stuff on my life with my still 2nd grade fear,
But then she took over my happiness,
What a **tch she was,
Now I don't say bad words so that gives a clue,
Of how evil she was,
She took my best friend,
And everything else,
She took all my friends and my dignity,
And left me there to my alone in my hatred and misery,
She claimed me her friend but I knew better that she made a lie,
But all those so called friends are buffoons for believing in her,
Now those buffoons say their my friend but how can I tell,
I don't so I try to stay hidden but thats quite hard,
I now found a true loyal friend,
She's great and all just not enough you know,
And I'm not spoiled so you see,
I never knew how much hatred I could hold now with out blowing up,
I'm trying to forget and move on,
But it's kind of hard when you see that demon girl,
Almost every class,
Now 7th grade is rolling in,
And I'm still just as out and mad as before,
But just more,
I don't know what to do,
But i can tell you,
I'm not gonna cut,
But I do wonder if my life has a meaning,
I don't think I do though,
Whats the point of living when you cant play a part,
It's not like the worlds gonna be different if I go to death,
Running away ain't a bad idea,
But I will miss my sisters,
Even if they are brats,
So what to do,
Well all I know is,
I'll try to keep the anger within,
But still it creeps out so yea sorry,
I'm trying the best i can you know,
I think I might die from so much stress,
Isn't that sad,
I just can't seem to balance all my life on a scale,
I didn't even tell you the half of it right here.
This was all real about what i feel, and thats not even the half, i know its long sorry. Well please vote, and comment.
