Rambaling

I don't know if this is me and if I'm truly alive
As the smile on my face.. is only there for the tears to hide
If this is really me then I'm in for a big surprise

I have secrets that i have kept from both of my friends
But all i am wondering is if the lies will ever end
Or if i will be stuck forever more.. i can't continue to bend

He hits you now times three a week
But you haven't told me till now, help you do not seek
This world.. my life is getting to bleak

labels curse the society down
And make other people seem strange... the words in which they drown
The Goths.. you don't have to ware a frown

Pretending for so many years
To hide the pain no one has bothered to hear
Accepting the looks and dirty sneers

Grouping our thoughts the best we can
Helping each other out when we are down
Trying not to let anyone leave and nobody drown

I have tried to help them the best i could
But i can't tell the other one as much as i should
As they are deep secrets other wise i would

Bullies control the life out there
They will pick you apart without a care
And will hurt you if you return the stare

They don't stick up for you
No matter how much you have helped them through
There best is just never good enough.. face the truth

Fake a smile.. to wipe away the tears
Talk with pretense and laughter for all those years
And do your best to forget those fears

Don't let them see a single bleeding tear