The Fight..

I didn't mean to hurt you with my words
But you really did make me sore
When you said you would show up
I would wait up for you to come

I don't know if this will be my best poem..
I don't know if I'll ever make it to the top
All I truly know..is that your promises mean nothing to you

You always said you really cared
I said one thing and your care turned to despair

I still love you, don't think I don't
But your words..never ment a thing to you..

After 12 years of not being there
After 12 years of me wanting to get rid of all this despair
You come back the 13th year
You come back and act like you were always here

Well let me tell you...you weren't
And the promises and words are still hurting
You want to get to know me now, you say you love me...
But the years just don't rewind..and I'm not blind..

You chose your little wife over me..
You let her mistreat me..
I would tell you what she did to me.. and you would just say I was lying..

These wounds won't heal so fast...
These wounds may last and last...
But one thing I can never forget...
Is the way you forgot about me...
Just like that...

You come back now and pretend you've always been there...
Say your sorry but to me those words are long forgotten...
You chose your EX wife over me...
now that she's done with you, you think you can come back to ME

I just need some time to process this through
Because you caused me scars that may never heal
like I said..this poem is real

My father chose her over me...
That's what really hurt me...
He doesn't get the fact that I cry every night
He doesn't get it
I'M JUST NOT RIGHT!
I need help, that's easy to see..
but you don't know me...so your too blind to see...

Don't think I don't love you because that isn't true
Just give me some time...that's all I ask from you...

Don't act like you don't know me...
Just give me some time...
Then I will open...
And all will be fine..