For DAD

The past few years,
have been full of loss and fears,
Ive been let down,
Ive crashed and burned,
even through everything,
the classic smile returns,
don't pity,
I'm not even trying to be b**chy,

let me write you a poem of my heart,
let me begin, maybe from the start?

going into my teenage years,
brought me happiness than overwhelmed with tears,

the people i loved,
have moved up above,
i eventually moved away,
as all my friends in my hometown stayed,
everything went just so wrong,
the first week at my new home just felt so long,

my new school,
i got ridiculed for continuous months,
no one even tried to help me, those worthless c***s,

emotional torture as you may say,
does it matter? someday they'll pay?

the misery i went through uncontrollably everyday,
in my bed every night there i lay,
thinking about how i should've never moved away,
how i should've done so many things a totally different way....

finally someone came threw,
and helped me and told me what to do,
the only guy that was truly there for me,
the only guy who could really see,
the pain and nights that went by,
where all i would do was sit and cry,

i never told anyone about the hardest nights of my life,
giving you a hint- to do with a knife.

he held me close and said
"darling don't you worry,
I'll fight for you and they'll be sorry,
just for me, don't let your wrists run red"
my father, my honest to god only real friend,
till the end,
showed me for the first time that a promise can be kept,
instead of walking away and there i am left..
he came through,
he fought for me,
he showed the promise that helped me see,

"all i want is my daughter back" he once told me,
for a period of time,
i became so slack,

grades had dropped,
my happiness had stopped,
socializing was not an option,
my life was at a cost,
but still he kept his promise and helped me through,

to my dad, from me to you..........

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for my dad, obviously xx