My mental state

\"you\'d be better off put in care\"
by care she meant a mental place
scizophrenia she throught i had
wrongly diagnosed becase my temper was so bad
one minute im fine the next i would flip
trash everywhere and make it a tip
i hurt my mum i hurt my dad
and people thought this didnt make me sad
sad aint the word i was distraught
when id flipped out couldnt remember what had happned
couldnt remember the damage id done
black outs is what i experienced
the agony of knowing i could do anything and not know about it
i dont know maybe i did have it maybe i didnt
did i grow out of it
or is it still inside me waiting to flare up
i dont know what lies in the future
am i mentally ill?
i dont think i am
but what if i am
what if something happenes and i carnt control it
should i have been put into care
all them years ago
il never know untill it happens again
do not judge me because of my condition
i am a human jsut like you
i make mistakes
and though them iv grew
i hope it never happens again
i hope we dont experince the pain
my mental state is fine at the minute
you judgeing me could send me back into despair
is that what you want
would that be fair
think about that before you sit and judge me