What's become of me?

Dear Diary,

Today I finally feel all of which I've hid away
I finally see how much of my life has led astray
The person I was has slowly begun to disappear
So much of my life has already been spent in fear.

So many feelings I have are still left unsolved
So many nightmares I still haven't dissolved
Slowly I've been seeing a stranger's reflection
When I look at my life, I've lost my direction.

Crying in pain from the emptiness in my heart
Dreading to live, another painful year apart
After losing the dearest, most precious person to me
And losing close friends that I would call family.

Time's still going on, yet I feel like mine has stopped
I look around me and I cannot bear to have it dropped
I've turned into a very lonely and lost person inside
How long before my whole life begins to subside?

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