I have changed.

You have changed me
In ways I never imagined.
I thought I would be
The opposite of what I became.

I was just an innocent girl,
Unaware of how boring my life was.
Then I met you,
And everything changed that night.

We worked together.
You had to close up the place.
I hung around with you,
While I usually go straight home.

When I made it home,
I made a series of lies to my parents.
I couldn't tell them what happened!
This was too good to be true!

I had to see you again.
The next night I did.
You did the worst:
You called me your angel.

I was officially hooked.
Nothing was stopping me,
I had to get to know more,
For I was falling in love with you.

I was a good girl.
I was planning on getting baptized.
You told me to get out of there ASAP,
Cuz Baptist churches are cults.

I backed off,
Seeing if what you said was true.
I found out you were right,
And I was almost one of them.

I was grateful
That you had saved me.
You made me promises
That I was sure you would keep.

You told me you were leaving.
I gave you my necklace
So you would not forget me,
And you gave me yours.

You left so soon it seems,
We never said goodbye.
I wonder,
What would have happened if you stayed?

Would things have been different between us?
Would you not have said hello?
Would I still be your angel?
I guess we'll never know.

What I do know though
Is that you changed me.
I don't know if I wanted to be,
But do I know that I loved you.

I don't know exactly how,
You're nothing of what I used to love.
Before you,
I looked for different things.

Now, the only things I love in guys
Are the things that made you hott.
The things in you
That took my breath away.

The guys who have those things
Are nothing of what you used to be.
They don't know how
To make me smile like you did.

You had some sort of magic,
You were just that way.
You knew just what to do
To make me want you to stay.

So you knew just how to hurt me.
You did it in the worst way.
You made me so so happy,
Only to realized true sadness.

I wasn't a happy girl before.
Then you made me glow.
You made it so when you left,
I would know that I'm actually depressed.

I know that wasn't your intention.
You were just trying to make things better.
But what you did was
Make me love you even more.

This wasn't a good thing.
I was crazy when you were here.
Now that you're gone,
I'm worse than before.

Now I'm a sad girl
Who was once happy
And will do anything
To feel happiness again.