Sometimes

Sometimes in a sleep,
sometimes so aware,
sometimes just longing to be,
sometimes i just feel bare.
i feel like i could be so much more then who i am today.
but my talent is going nowhere.
i feel like if i don't use this it will all go away.
i couldn't stand to be left with nothing in this world to share.
so i open my heart to strangers.
i welcome them into my life,
but they always leave me feeling empty and alone.
commitment, feels like I'm searching for the number of the stars.
impossible, improbable.
unsolvable, unstoppable.
to take of and consume in,
to throw out in the wind.