So sad...So sad

Here we go again
I've fallen one more time
the depressing life im living
wasn't in my mind

Im trying to get better
but no one sees those steps
its getting to the point
where ill leave for the best

I have no one on my side
except jesus christ himself
i have no one who'll listen
they all say i need help

So that must make my feelings
crazy and insane
if thats what my heart tells me
something's wrong with my brain

Im tired of ending poems
with words that mean goodbye
im tired of living life
when i know im going to die