This pain

I cant take this pain
its eating me up inside
the tears rolling down my face
my throat hearting from all my screams

i run to the kitchen
and rip open the draw
and grab the knife
i dig it in and pull it up

the blood i see
drowns my pain
i feel myself growing drowse
i don't know what to do
i am now leaving you
just know i love you

but i don't love you as much as i hate my life