My Salvation

Some people say they know me,
How much they do not know,
To claim such an odd thing,
Without any proof to show,

For inside of me rests,
Beyond all light and knowledge,
A small secret part of me,
Deeply indulged in carnage,

Tis where my demons go,
Tis where my hatred is,
And no a soul alive can honestly claim,
They have seen that dark abyss,

All my evil incarnated,
Is stored with there,
And if it was ever released,
Would consume me, I fear,

I go there sometimes,
To dwell on darker things,
But I dare not stay to long,
So soon I must take wing,

Evil I am not,
But life does not want it to be,
For every time I make a friend,
It takes them away from me,

Some say my life is good,
I say for the most part they are right,
But if I lose just one more friend,
My soul might retreat into the night.

I do not fear going there,
For I have seen it through,
But I do fear for other people,
My brother and my mother too.

But oh, a light I see,
Some one out beyond my sight,
Is out there helping me,
Keep away from the night.

With out this little star,
I would be lost at sea,
And I thank them eternally,
For keeping me.... me.