Let me sink (just this once!)

Can i not face the mirror? just today just this once!? i wanna sink just let me sink to the bottom of the sea! i dont want somebody to sand me a booy to help me swim. i just wanna sink just this once and if death is in my fait let it be! if not i will come up and but the play back on for all! ill but back on the smile the laugh, and the mask i just wanna sink today!