Wow..mike i hate that you're feeling like this:'(
I knwo the feeling..even though u may hate to hear that and think 'of course she doesn't' but you'd be surprised. And that poem at least, feels like you've taken a leaf out of my diary or something.
If the future is undefined as you say, so changeable (not sure if that's a word:S) then make it change the way you want..tyr it ..
take care of urself xoxox

I've just read a lot of your poems, still more to go later on this afternoon. But wanted you to know that you are putting your heart on your sleeve with every write and thank you for sharing your soul. Lost love hurts, as you've so talently captured.