Just Me...(Part One)

Once in denial, \"not starving myself.\"
but, I was really hungry,
Once I ate an entire meal for one,
and was so disgusten in me.

Id go and throw it up,
punch my stomach till I was sick
I was too worthless for food,
I didnt desrerve it.

I wasnt worthy of the meal,
I was too ugly for its need.
If only I could have been perfect...
I wouldnt have to bleed.

So I finally reaslized,
something was really wrong.
But I only saw partial of it...
I really didnt belong...

I was odd in sorts,
not the \"attractive girl\"
I felt like the ugliest person,
that existed in the world.

Because I was along,
no one to be with me...
So I kept up my horrendous behavior...
someday, PERFECT, I would be...