Losing you

Its just so crazy
I don't know what to do....
my heart is aching
having him,
yet wanting you.
My head starts to spin,
reminiscing "back in the day".
How you made me tremble,
yet took my pain away.
You weren't my first love,
but you were my last.
As i say this a tear drip onto paper,
remembering our past.
So many nights i waited.
So many tears I have cried.
But no more tears,
i ran out .
When i found out you lied.
You promised me forever,
and i truly did believe you.
Know i take back ....

trusting
loving
missing you.
My heart was broken when you came,
and you fixed it for some time.
But it didn't last long enough
cause I'm still here .....
and I'm not fine.
I lost you once
I lost you twice
but i don't care any more
cuz in this fairy tale
your kicked out of my life
your gone forever more.

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