Confussion

*Not very Gd just... General rambling bout the last month*

I feel so dirty.. i feel like a wh/ore i just don't know what to do anymore
I bought it on myself.. no sympathy needed.. just down right stupidness has exceeded
Popping up in my dreams the thought of yesterday.. as they wont go away
All the sl/utty things I've done.. i guess you won
I cry at any song.. and believe the quotes that are said.. for i am in the wrong
So many things ruin this life... so many things add to this hype
Gave up the self destructive ways.. to fight for another day
Just to return to temptation.. and turn cold on every person
Cut myself shaving my legs.. return those blades to my arms.. the past running through my head
That blood trickled from my ankle.. as i stood silently thankful
Small innocent release of pain... Back to my old ways again!
Sorry to disappoint and break the promises made.. i just couldn't continue without the blade