I hate...

I hate a lot of things.I hate my life. But most of all I hate myself.I screw up.but no one seems to notice, cause they think i'm some smart girl with a perfect life.Well they're wrng. MY life is everythign but perfect.I h8 myself 4 so many reasons.ya know the usual teen wit depression.Thats wat u want.WE're all different.i h8 being seen as more than one. i wanna be seen as myself. i want peeeps 2 realize wat they're doing to me. they rthink they're helping me,.like they can put back the peices.only i can do that.but its gonna take some time. they try 2 help me.but it wont work.i have 2 help myself. if i can.all they;re doin is pushin me further away, into thoughts of drugs,drinking,cutting myself.so instead of knives and razors, i scratch myself, with paperclips, anything sharp.there are all these things i h8.