Im not...

All I want to do is puke
Get rid of all this pain.
But there's nothing else left in this stomach
To throw up.

Swallow the pills
Lean over the toilet
Hold back your hair
Force down your fingers

gag
gag
gag

Then the most disgusting smell
Gag
Gag
Gag
Get rid of that food
Get rid of this hell.

I'm not bulimic
I have no choice
If I can't cut
What can i do?

I'm not what you think I am

I want to scream
I want to cry
I want to sleep
I wish to die.

I'm not bulimic
I didn't do it yesterday...

I don't think I'm fat
Well, not all the time, anyway.
It's not as simple as that
I don't know how to explain.

SMILE
Laugh
Pretend it's all good
Smile
pretend
Like you know that you should.

Open up
And then get hurt
Let's not try that
Again.

So hide myself
Inside myself
No one will ever find me
No one will even look.

PRETEND
Pretend
Hold it all in
Slap yourself, you just can't cry
Cuz then somebody will know

I'm not bulimic.....
Don't worry about me
It's not a big deal

I mean really
It's just me.