My Teenage Suicide-Part I

You should have listened to me.
you should have known i wasn't OK.
you saw my scars,
you saw me cry,
you even heard me scream.
how was it you didn't seem to care,
and you didn't think i needed help?
you said my problems would go away,
but look here mom there still here!
you promised that they would go away,
and so would all my fears.
why are my fears still here?
and why is it i cant sleep without my nightmares waking me.
you saw me crying,
you heard me screaming,
how couldn't you know?
you told me how to make the best of life,
and i tried it on my own.
i made it so far without you,
that there was no need for me to fear.
but why is it when I'm around you my life flashes before my eyes?
why is it i cry in fear,
and wish to lay down and die?
i thought you said you were here to help me,
you told me i could tell you anything.
but why when i need your guidance I'm walking all alone.
thanks a lot, you've helped me out,
you helped me plan,
my teenage suicide.