Will I Be Alive?

I'm walking down the stairs to an almost empty home,
I see him sitting on a chair and in his hand, a comb
He calls me over to sit right between his knees
I walk so slow and softly, will God help me please?

I don't know what to do i don't know what to say
All i do is sit and hope that my mummy comes back today
He brushes through my hair trying to touch my back,
I close my eyes real tight, my voice is what i lack

I tried to find my voice to say something to stop,
If i did say a thing he'll make my head go pop
I beg in my mind for all of this to end
For right now this man, makes my pride want to bend

He turns the TV on, the video is playing,
A man and woman panting, screaming, what the hell they saying?
He tries to copy them and puts his fingers there
Should i tell to stop? No i didn't dare

He touches and hits me in places Ive never known before
I look around elsewhere, while he grabs on me for more
He forced me to touch this thing, big and hard
While he peers out the window, standing on his guard

When will this torture stop, when will it ever end?
He has broken my emotions will it ever mend?
Where is my mummy and daddy?will they ever be here?
My heart is pounding fast, so full of fear

Should i say a word should i close my lips?
Thank God, he ain't thrusting me between my hips
I'm still a virgin, thanks to him, but my emotions are broken,
I grew up without crying, or any words spoken

Will this be the end or will this be the same
Him coming in abusing me, making me insane?
Will i ever see happiness?Will i be alive?
Uncle please stop it, God, I'm only five.