Sleepless Unormalty

Ive been awake so long,
i cant tell if I'm dreaming or not,
i cant help but stare off,
into the world among no thought.

my thoughts become voices,
the voices become real,
they tell me my decisions,
and what i really feel.

my eyes appear crudely bloodshot,
my energy is slowly disappearing,
I'm in a different reality,
with the voices i keep hearing.

i refuse to sleep,
but ill lay awake in bed,
i will not close my eyes,
and let crazed dreams get to my head.

the dreams of pain and killing,
none of it feels quite right,
i don't know what it means,
when i see red instead of white.

i love every life on earth,
every person has some good,
yet i watch helplessly as we slaughter them all,
i would stop us if i could.

my hands start to shake,
my heart begins to race,
i look around in dread,
as the blood drains from my face.

its always the same,
dreaming or awake,
both worlds are one,
both real yet artificially fake.

its all your doing,
you control my evil half,
i cry for their innocent lives,
as you tilt your head back and laugh.