A Winter of Tears

I sit on my bed, looking out the window
My white fleece blanket wrapped tightly around me as if the only thing that\'ll give me any comfort
I watch the snow falling outside as the wind pushes it around
I feel the coldness leaking into my heart
I think of you and what happened between us
Tears swell in my eyes as I remember
Every memory we had creeps back into my hollow mind
The words exchanged between us hurt like a razor blade pressed against my soft flesh
A misunderstanding that hurt more then anything
The pain boils over as my tears start to glide down my pink cheeks
I lean on the cold glass of the window and continue weeping
This pain hurts too much and yet I love you still
Sometimes I think late at night about what I would do without you
I hate thinking that because I never want to be without you
Your touch is what keeps me alive and your love is what keeps the blade from caressing my skin once again
But the fight we had hurt me more then anything
I think about pressing the cold blade against my wrist once again
But then I think of what you\'d be going through without me
I wonder to myself
Are you better off without me?
Or would you just follow in my bloody foot steps of death?
That question haunts my mind
But for now
I\'ll stay
Lingering
Away.