How can I?

How can I tell you,
What you mean to me,
When I know myself,
It's not meant to be.

We laugh and we joke,
As only friends can,
So why can't I say,
Please be my man.

Another years passing,
Without a second look.
Sometimes I wish
You could read me like a book.

Sometimes I feel,
the world is crashing down,
and then you appear,
acting like a clown.

Why can't I say,
Hey watch this,
and lean over gently,
For one last kiss.

We'll always be friends,
But I want so much more,
To hold you in my arms,
And go behind closed door.