The dream.

Last night i was sleeping and i had a dream, you were in my room, just you and me,
You said you know i love you, so lets do it, just one time, i was scared and all alone in my quiet mind,
I said i wasn't ready, to be with you that way, but you kept on asking, so i decided to play.
you took me in your arms and kissed me on the lips, i was really scared, I've never felt like this. as we were finished i felt so diminished.I couldn't believe what i had done, i felt so dumb.
Two weeks later we were there in sin, you asked if we could do it again, i love you for real is what you say, so once again i decided to play, it felt better, better than before this time i thought i loved you more.
then you decided to tell your friends they said "you know she loves you dude?" you said "how do you know? i talk to her more than you." as you speak they say to you "you know she talks to our girlfriends too, she she says she loves you and you don't even know, she says she cant live without you. you know?"
You came to me and said "i didn't mean to pressure you into having sex, i really do love you, you are the best, i know that you are meant for me and so i think we should let things be, i don't want to have anymore sex, lets just love and forget this mess." i started to cry in your arms and i felt that i was away from harm. then the most terrible thing happened and screwed up our love , came to my senses, and finally woke up.