An ode to you, my mother that subconsciously lies
My mommy comes back, she always comes back.
She always comes back to get me.
My mommy comes back, she always comes back.
She never will forget me.
That song you sing is entirely devoid the truth.
What is so backbreaking to assimilate?
Youre our mother; youre supposed to be there.
But instead you alienate yourself,
Leaving us to suffer from the mistakes youve made.
Please come back, we need you here today.
You have loved ones here to advocate and guide you.
Why you choose to ignore this Ill never be sure.
Love shouldnt have to be incumbent.
Caring for your children shouldnt be by force,
It should come with ease and altruism.
When he sends you away, its only to help you.
Its not to usurp your rights and harm you, as you claim.
Ive been exalted from daughter to mother,
Watching you clamber your way through life,
One bad choice after another, and frankely the hackneyed pattern is getting old.
Youre no longer the affable and loving person you used to be,
Instead youre contentious and pugnacious, nothing like the old mommy.
Sometimes it seems as if our life is merely a parody,
Mimicking what takes place in a normal family.
Youve left everyone confused and in ways dysfunctional.
I resent you for that.
I used to pray at night, convinced youd come back to me,
Ah, how foolish I was to think youd return.
I know deep down your penitent for what youve done,
Your sick, and to a certain extent, I can accept that.
But what youve done is in no way fair. We love you.
Ive made hecatombs and gone out on limbs,
Making sure the young ones are inviolable from the pain.
I can only do so much, Im only one child.
"Youre strong Andrea, you can get through this."
Strong, maybe, omniscient, no.
What the future holds for you, I may never find out
Youve loved me, hurt me, and left me alone.
But, if I was to do it all over, I wouldnt change one thing,
I believe it made me the person I am today.
So maybe, instead of forgetting and resenting you, ill thank you.
Heres my homage to you, my daughter who subconsciously lies.
