Mistakes...

I wish I could let go
To have no cares at all
To do whatever I please
Without being scared to fall

I wish that I could run
And not have to face anyone
I wish I didn't have to
Face the mistakes I have done

If only life was this easy
If only they would understand
I too need someone to hold me
Someone to give me a helping hand

I have done so many things
Most I'm not proud of
But no matter how many tears I cry
It will never be enough

I cant control my heart
I cant control my desires
He's the one that I crave
My fuel to my hearts fire

I am sorry that I am weak
To the way he looks at me
I just cant help but sin again
Can anyone see what I see?

Now I find myself involved
In a very difficult situation
My decision towards this matter
Can very well mean my resignation

I wish that I could act
Like nothing is wrong
But I have to face my fears
The ones I've hid all along

I have to open up to the world
Let them see my countless sins
So that I could somehow make things right
And to let a new life begin

But no one understands
That this is so hard for me
Its killing me inside
I can hardly breathe

I wish that I could run
And not have to face anyone
I wish I didn't have to
Face the mistakes I have done