My Disguise

The inspiration of this song comes from you
Because I know that you will see your word through
I'm sorry for the lies that I have for told
The timing of these words is bitter and cold

I need to feed you all these lies
To keep you from finding out my disguise
But the words have meaning beyond the disbelief
The pain and the torture of this cruel relief

To tell you the truth worries that you will leave
And rip out my heart leaving my chest to heave
Will I survive or will I move on?
If you leave me now and you are gone?

This is where you stop caring, and this is where I won't lie
My broken bonds and broken words can simply not be tied
It doesn't matter if I tell you how I feel
It's bleeding on my arms in red that simply will not heal

Can you, see me, through these hazy days
I will not pretend with you these games we play
Cover my eyes and take my heart I will keep breathing
But I will love you until the day I see you leaving

So I will, feed you, all of these lies
And you will see through each of my disguise
Theses words that I write for you are not worth reading
Like the feelings you have for me are ever so misleading

Samantha