Can anything be real?
Is it true? Is there even a reason for all of this? He still loves you, can you not see it? Maybe if you asked him, he'd leave me in an instant. I see it in his eyes. There's someone else other than me? Maybe it's just my fear overwhelming me. Maybe my fear will bury me. I love him more than anything and yet he still thinks that I'm in love with other people. I want to marry him. I want him to be my crying shoulder. I want him to be there when I need him. I want his children to be mine. Maybe all my fears push him away. Maybe he wants some other kind of girl. Someone better than me. Fear can do amazing things. It can destroy you. Fear is so powerful that god himself couldn't overwhelm it. I'm always scared! Scared of this world. Scared of being alone. Scared of losing everything.
