I dont know how to save you this time

Everyday I wake and open my eyes
I hope to see, in front of me, your loving face
But no longer do I see it in all of its grace
I do still see you but thats close to a lie
Because you are not the same
Your eyes no longer glow but now are dull and lame
What has happened to you?
Your beautiful cream skin
Is now pale with sin
Im not sure what to do
You could be sick for all I know
Or maybe its just that your emotions are low
I dont know we dont talk anymore
You never tell me anything
But I know somethings wrong because you dont sing
You use to have such a lovely voice
But now your voice is horse
Its use to be harmony is cores
You have changed so much
Will I love this new you?
If not what do I do
I cant just leave
Not if Im living you like this
I know I saw the marks on your wrist
But then I didnt think of it
I didnt think you would do that
You blamed the cuts on the cat
And I just nodded with out a thought
I believed you full heartedly
You had never lied to me
Know that I think back had you lied then
Had you gone back to using a pen
I remember when you used to do that
Stab yourself in the arm
Just because you thought causing yourself harm
Was going to save you in the end
But know look at what its caused
All your emotions are paused
And its not saving you now is it
No its hurting you now
And I donâ??t know how
To save you this time