How i feel

I want to cry a river
swim deep like a diver
for i cant take the pain
to live a life so plain.

all i hear are screams
for i have horrendous dreams
of a forever falling
and sounds of death calling.

water surrounds me
with burdens untold
in a deep shadowy sea
dark and freezing cold.

left in a foggy place
with my hidden face
i walk scared unknown
shivering and bare forever on my own.