Alone- more and more

Here i am again
thinking about everything
staring out the window
looking at all the laughing people down below
wishing i was one of those people
once again...
but Ive changed
and my life is different
I'm afraid to go too far alone...
I'm afraid to be alone...
I'm afraid of myself-
afraid of the way my thoughts turn
when I'm left alone too long
left with myself
and it seems my will is no longer as strong...
problem is I'm alone more and more...
i cry more and more...
i think more and more...
one of these days I'm afraid
that ill be alone too long
and that my will will finally break
and i wont be afraid to do the things that Ive been too afraid to complete before...
I'm afraid the guilt
that weighs on my shoulders
will finally catch up to me
and i wont be able to hold it any longer...
i wont be able to live any longer-
i wont be able to build myself stronger
i wont be able to live...