None is here for me even on this special day to wipe my tears

Do you really understand how I feel
None seems to really know
I know I've made many mistakes
I have to live with them forever

I cant explain my problems
it's just to much to bare
none is here for me
even on this special day to wipe my tears

Every tear just runs off my cheek
even when I'm happy I still cry
is it something I'm looking for
to be truthful I'm not sure

I wish so bad I could be loved
I want to feel that feeling once again
I can't explain the sadfulness I have
there are no words to express the pain

I'm always left alone
just to think of some wicked thoughts
something that will hurt me
it will surely will affect my life

I don't care about how much I bleed
it doesn't matter what someone says
none can help me I'm stuck in my room to mourn
I show the signs but none bothers to help

They don't know what evil things I want to do
I may miss my friends but they will not miss me
respect is not something they give but only what I give
I try so hard to achieve so little

They just don't understand
I can't help how I'm
I have no reason to be hated
I have no reason to live like this

Can you feel me
do you understand the pain I feel
do you truly understand what I'm saying
dam I never new I was hated so bad

I guess this is something I have no control over
but I guess that is why there is a god
he gave me such pain for a reason
giving me a test that I surely can't pass

it's not the fact that I can't
but only the fact that none is there for me
none there to take each step with me
none there to take each breath with me

None can understand how I feel
even the person reading his doesn't understand
it just makes me cry every time I think about it
I thrive on the pain people give

The time for me to give up is now
the time for me to be destroyed
thats what you all want
if thats so I can help that along

I wont be me missed
people barley even know my name
so why would they care about me
I'm not even thought about

The word love isn't within me
my past used my love up within me
nothing left within me to give but death
but yet only happiness to give you

These are my last words I'm writing
I'm stopping right here
I know you don't care
how could you since you don't know my pain

Who knows what I'm going to do
I'm just going to leave
and with all these thoughts in your mind
The thought of living or dieing only I can choose