I'm sorry I'm not her,
I truly wish I was,
I'm sorry I don't have bright blond hair,
And look like everyone else,
But you have to understand that I really do care.
You say you love her with all of your heart,
Well I love you,
Why can't you see,
Anything for you I would do.
I would pretend to be happy,
And never frown again,
I would look at my life with such fake joy,
Then I would pour my heart out with this pen.
Or I would stop smiling all together,
And cut my wrists for you,
Your wish is my only command,
Even if you don't see the pain you put me through.
I dream of you all night,
Wishing I didn't feel this low,
Knowing I can never have the one and only you,
I cry myself back to sleep with my eternal sorrow.
You didn't even give me a shot,
I'm sorry I fell for you,
I'm sure you'll be happy to hear,
That I'm ending the pain you put me through.
I'm ending it just for you,
With this single knife,
It may not necessarily be painless,
But I'm sure it will be nothing compared to the pain in my life.
So goodbye my sweet sweet love,
You'll never know just what you did to me,
And how much pain I wish I could not have,
But because of this suicidal love my heart is now free.
