All I'll Ever Be

I look into the mirror,
and see my hideous self
and for the first time,
i realize why everyone hates me.
I'm way too fat
look like shit
with a face not even a mother could love.
I'm so deprived.
and so depressed.
I'm screaming inside.
I'm sick of looking like a monster in a horror movie,
and sick of all the lies and hate,
that i feel every day.
my one true friend,the one i can trust,
says i look fine,
she likes me the way i am,
but that's not enough.
in comparison,
to the girls at school,
I'm like a nobody nerdy loser.
this is all I'll ever be,
and that's the truth.
so i cry myself to sleep,
and grab my knife and slit my wrists
give a sigh,
and get ready to face tomorrow.