How stupid was i?
the blade from a sharpener would not be enough,
but i was inexperienced and did not know better,
i did try to cut but it would not,
it was not sharp enough,
i managed to make a small cut and pressed down,
harder and harder trying to go deeper,
cut my wrist and expose my vein,
but it was to no avail,
all i got was much pain and not much blood,
i could not find anything sharper to try with,
trying to end my life is the only thing that matters ,
i should have tried harder while i had the chance but i couldn't find a blade sharp enough so i did not die,
but i shall live in regret from now till the day i finally succeed in taking my own life.
